Mikey

I have been going through a lot of personal things lately.  apparently for months.  and I am thankful that a friend took the time to listen tonight.  this is not bagging on anyone else.  I finally didn't feel guilty for "talking it out" or feel like I was boring the person.  thank you dear

I am starting to re-think renewing my membership in the Camarilla.  It will depend on how my email is responded to.

patch is on.  hopes are high.

so, a lot of things have been changing in my life as of late so I decided to start making some personal changes as well.

on September 1st, I quit smoking.  I received my shipment of Nicoderm CQ in the mail today.  this will be healthy for me and save me anywhere between $100-$125/month.  total win-win situation.

on September 8th, I start the South Beach Diet.  This one is going to be a little harder but I looked in the mirror the other day and didn't like the size I'm at currently.  It has nothing to do with anyone's perceptions but my own.  I'm a handsome guy.  I just don't like me at this size.  clothes don't fit right.  It's affecting my posture.  It's affecting my self esteem.  This is not where I wanted to be physically at 38 so I'm changing it.  If you can't be supportive, I don't want to hear it.  I am also joining the gym at work.  Already have a trainer and workout partner.  I want to be slimmer when I go to visit my family and tribe in California in March.

I will be posting updates on lj on my progress.  I am doing this for myself.  it has nothing to do with things people have said to me or thinking this will get me a boyfriend.  that's bullshit.  this is where my road to being a better person is taking me.  I need to quit lying to myself that I'm still 25 and thin.  I need to quit lying to myself period.  So I'm on the bandwagon, folks.  either come along for the ride or I'll see you at the end of the journey.

positive frame of mind.  not a care in the world.  had wonderful moments with friends.


spring's here!

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS TO riksowden & the_vern !!  I hope you both have a wonderful day!!

does anyone out there have a copy of Frank Wildhorn's Dracula, the Musical?  I would be willing to pay for shipping of a copy of the soundtrack to me here in Arizona.  I have looked EVERYWHERE for it and it is out of print and very difficult to find.  can anyone help me?

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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

y'all are my friends

I need you to be honest with me....


leave a comment here.  comments will be screened so no one gets pissy with the other.  I promise not to be pissy with anyone.  so let loose.  tell me how you really feel about me.  I need to know this.

I have returned...

*Ethan looked at the list sent to him by his friend.  Unconquered and others marked for death by the remnants of the Emperor of the Night's faithful.  Familiar names dotted the electronic landscape.  No family but a few allies and some who tried to kill him.  Who succeeded in murdering Prince Hubbins and Ecaterina and attempted to kill Julia.*

This is a list of those that the Iron Guard/Brood and specifically
Astor has of those they want killed.  This list was written by the
mortal Astor possessed into one of my cities last night.

(scanned document ooc this is typed EXACTLY as the hand written note
given to me last night)

Invictus Criminals

Lord Leon Vogel of Seattle
Lord Johnathun Nelson of Kitsap
Lady Olivia Nova of Vancouver
Duke Justin Maxwell of Anchorage
Lord Belmont of Olympia
Baron John Henri Calais of seattle
Earl Damon Knight of TriCities
Lady Jane of Boise
Lord Michael of Boise
Lord Logan Winters of Vancouver

Other Traitors to the Region

Ashton of Ordo Dracul
Karl a-hani Carlos Magon Fernando of Lancea Crone or Circle Sanctun or whatever
Bishop Welox of Lance Sanctum
Arch Bishop Cassius De la Sang   Lance
Bishop Manwell of Lance
Cardinal Lucius Vicarus of Lance
Crusader Grahm "Beef" Wellington    Lance
Herophant Lycos    Circle
Claire Marie  Circle
Sam  Carthian
Levka Alexinova  of Dragon
Brutus Darling

If you have any questions please ask,

Imperator Nova

*Ethan looked at his phone and then back to the computer screen...and then hit send*

ok folks...


I need your help.


I need music I can run or dance to.  I have a lot of music but I need new stuff.  Can you help me out?  this is for me to get into shape.

so, chatting with a few people this morning, the popular opinions is for my to re-app for status 3 on Ethan but to also app for 4 while I'm at it.


comments?

Callie did not get a hold of the landlord as she promised so now I am going to be charged for half of her portion of the rent...AGAIN!  She promised me a week ago that she would contact him with her new debit card information and that I would have nothing to worry about.  I was stupid enough to believe her.  I have $20 dollars in my account from paying rent here and at the old house, utilities, car insurance, and renters insurance.  no groceries.  no fun money. nothing.  and now I am expected, by the terms of the lease, to pay half of her share with Jarrick paying the other half.  I spent an hour after work trying to locate her to no avail.  I left notes for her at the old house and I know she had been there.  this means no groceries for me for 2 weeks.  no game of the month.  no fuel for the truck. nothing!  in fact, most of next paycheck will go to overdraft fees and other such charges because she was not responsible enough to pay her rent.  I am not even worried about the game of the month, it is everything else.  no food.  no gas.  having to ask people to borrow money which I hate doing in the first place.  but this is not even my fault.  if it were, I would take ownership of it.  I would deal with the fucked up issue of being broke.  but it is someone else driving the fucking bus.  someone who does NOT give a flying fuck about her responsibilities and is leaving town on Friday, never to be seen again. I doubt I will see a dime of the money I am getting screwed for.  I could get even more personal about her on here but I still have some form of respect.  not for her but about the situation.  so if you do not see me for the next couple of weeks, you now know why!

happy birthday Shai and Chloe!

I'm looking for ties for my Crone Gangrel (possibly Carnon) that I'm creating.  Already have a Sire but am looking for other influences on his requiem.


Timeline: 1845 until present.  his locations can be rather fluid.


any types of connections and ties would be welcome.  friends, enemies, old lovers....doesn't matter


LET'S HAVE FUN!!

I was told this by a co-worker the other day...

"Oh Mike...at least at your current weight, you won't get cold in the winter but summer's gonna be a bitch"

. . .

I didn't get mad.  I didn't cry.  I decided to get even.

the apartment complex has a fitness center.  I start walking the treadmill tomorrow morning.  we also have a pool for laps at night.  I have my meal program from my doctor.  that's gonna be the hard part because I heart my fried foods.  I'm going to start taking dance classes or go out dancing on the weekends when we don't have game.  I am going to do this.  but I need something from you, my friends.  a kind word would be nice ever once in a while.  I'm going to see if I can post digital pics of my progress under a filter.  some of you even met me when I was thin.  I'm doing this, in some part, for vanity's sake.  But I'm mainly doing it to prove that I can.  to myself.  I'm going to try and get the old me back.  the comfortable, self confident me.  the not depressed when I look in the mirror or try on clothes me. the look in the mirror and state "I'd fuck me" me.

who is with me?

for better or for worse....I am back on the internet.